i've got this cool magazine cut out on permanent display on my bulletin board.
It shows a picture of a fluffy looking couch.
This is the caption:
like you're going to be
if you don't
For ages I ignored this thing i cut out
I knew it was right,
but i had a million excuses. . .
i work full time
i don't have time to exercise
i don't feel like it when i do have time
its not fun
i have asthma
i have degenerative arthritis in my upper and midspine
i have a protruding disc in my lower spine
i'm getting older
the gym's class times aren't convenient
my gym closed
i need to be motivated by someone else
my dance class folded
i miss it and i don't like anything else
I discovered something important
excuses are ridiculous
i can motivate myself
i DO need to get up
i don't want to be big, soft, or squishy
i don't want to be limited, despite my limitations
i will not be held back by them
they are not the boss of me
things like eating properly and exercising are not things anyone can really afford to think of as optional
i have discovered that since i HAVE to do these things
i might as well pick things that are fun
i discovered something else on the way to having fun
sometimes despite being fun and rewarding
things that require consistency, effort, exertion, dedication and discipline
are not fun at first.
when we bought our bikes last year, we took them out for that first spin
i thought i was going to die after 2 blocks.
my legs burned
my lungs hurt
i begged to go back home
so i could collapse
right on the living room floor
flat on my back
things didn't seem to improve much on subsequent rides.
hills were my nemesis
my city is full of hills
its easier to name the streets that aren't giant hills
than it is to name the ones that are.
great going down
hell going up
walk the bike up
feeling like i'm going to puke
I thought my asthma was to blame for my lack of ability to go up hills
it kept triggering
Rob said to me one day after a brutal ride: "I think your bike is too heavy. Try riding mine for a while."
The angels sang. .
I felt like i was in bike heaven
it had shocks
it had a light frame
i was using the wrong kind of bike
After that lovely epiphany my husband went out and bought me a bike like his
I adore it.
Then we began to get serious.
Checking out the trails.
There were only so many places that were flat.
We had to make our peace with hills.
We tried to choose the easier ones.
Just kept going out,
we got l a z y
we did nothing
we had no back up plan.
i had my many fitness DVDs. . but they weren't nearly as exciting as being
there was no destination
there was no beautiful scenery
just counting and loud music and drudgery
winter chub, that Canadian phenomenon
i was becoming just like that fluffy couch. .
when we started up again for this season
it was like starting all over
winter robbed all of our progress
we let it
i've learned that you cannot ever stop
you can't think that you can afford to.
or you'll be sorry
i've also learned that you must plan when circumstances change
if you can't do 'this',
but do something! (heading out to get a pool membership, so all that conditioning does not disappear through the fall and winter)
Now, we look for every opportunity to get out
a short ride for us is now at LEAST an hour.
yes, its hard work
yes it takes a lot out of you
but it gives a lot back to you.
its such a feeling when you've just given it all
wrung yourself out and climbed tough hills and gone LONG
and you THINK its gonna kill you
and your mind tells you things
'you can't do it'
'its too hard'
'you should stop'
and feeling like you can't go on
to see your 'reward' up ahead. . .
a beautiful, huge hill
ahh. . . its amazing.
you get to fly
into that delicious wind
you don't have to do a thing
gravity does all the work for you
when you go far
you learn that you can farther every time
15 km becomes 20
you learn new routes
you see new things
you get faster
you shave time off your rides
you go faster
you stop complaining
and start enjoying
you sleep like a rock
you 'earn' your *food* treats
and you really ENJOY them!
i've learned the paradox of energy expenditure
you think you don't have enough to spend
but when you spend what you have
you get more
thank you, magazine ad cut out
thank you for telling me to
it took me long enough
but i've realized
that you're so right.